What will you find here...

If you have read the short sentence on the Page "About me" you know already a little from me. I have one of this stupid heads they can´t stop thinking. I don´t know why i have so much to think about life and etc, but i can´t change it, and so i have to live with it. I also was one of those kids they never know what they want be when they get older. And that´s my problem, i don´t know it till now. I think i have made every time the best out of my situations, and i like the point where my decisions have brought me, but this questions are know so loud and present i my head that i have to answer them.

This are the big Questions :

Who am i?
Where will i go?
Whats the reason for standing up everyday?
Whats my aim for the future?
Am i weird or not normal?
Why did i feel different?
Why did i think so different?
Why i am not completely happy?

And the biggest Question is:

What makes me happy?

Yeah that´s the big thing that i cant answer for me. I fucking should be happy..... because i have everything. But i am restless....

I talked to my best friend about this, and he told me that the most people came to this point sometimes. The most? I think a small amount of peoples came to this point, the others gave up far away from this point. They take the easy way or choose the way other peoples decided for them. But wait there is also an other way and this is in my opinion the way the most people chose.

Its the life that you have to live because the community expected this from YOU.

You only get acceptance from the community/family if you have with 25 years a wife, a child, a house, a dog, a....... Please don´t get me wrong, there is nothing to find fault with so, if this is/was your decision.

My family is the best example for this, my mother, my grandmother, relatives, they all ask me when i finally marry my girlfriend. Or why we don´t live in the same apartment, because we are in a relationship since more than 6 years. Whats wrong with us? That is not normal..

So maybe you read this and think whats wrong whit this guy, such an idiot.... Then i am sorry for you i wish you your perfect live.

But when you think similar or find yourself a little or completely in this text, then you can come with me, when i am try to find my answers to this questions.

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